Jumat, 24 Juni 2011

A New Day Has Come

Welcome to final year!
its a mix feeling when entering to last year of medical student, hopefully..
yes, i am afraid of pro exam and how tough this year would be, as a final year student before becoming a real doctor.am i ready to be a doctor one year from now?i doubt that.haha.
then , come excitement of almost 6 years of studying medicine, i will be graduating soon!it might be late, and off the initial plan but finallyyyy its over.how relieve i am to picture that i pass my pro exam and will be posted as a doctor in the hospital.ya, to be a houseman is another story but u dont know how much i want to move on with something new in my life,at least entering a work life no matter how hard it would be.

now, its day 5 of my final year.currently im in orthopaedic posting for 1 month.so its left me 3 more weeks.i need to be focus and work hard this year, but i dont really see its coming till now.ish2.but still, i am telling myself i will be more hardworking and not to delay my works from now.i need to study, study and study.this is my future.i have to change!i want to be knowledgeable and smart, and thats dont come easy.i have to read, to sacrifice a lot of things, my easy measy life, and motivation is the important thing..

to be out of ur comfort zone is very challenging at first..but then i realize, i am very2 thankful for that.Allah knows better. He want me to be better, to be the best and not just some ordinary people who where in the same level in their life, being stagnant and dull. life is about u.u decide how u want it. i found to be in a new group with peoples that im not closed to were actually is a positive things in my life.of all this years, im clinging with the same people, same place, same thing, same routine which make me weak i think,im not seeing the world, ive been so closed. but now, i know my capability and i know i am in charge of my life, i can do more. my life would not gonna end if im expose to a new thing in life. Thank God for everything..

my life were more peaceful now, i dont have to bother about to take care of everyone feeling that hurting me.i can do anything i want, i can be frineds with anyone i want..sometimes, people u dont really know, far more sincere than someone you have know for years..they dont backstabbing u, n not busybody interfering with ur life and i really appreciate that.

i am here to study, and my goal to be knowledgeable and equip myself to be a good doctor, to pass the pro exam...We can always hope, but its Him who decide.Help me in my ways of being a better me, better muslim..Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin..

Jumat, 01 April 2011


Today is Saturday. Happy Saturday!!
im at putrajaya. waiting to go home..
2 more weeks for family medicine n ortho exm.bt still as usual
im not prepare yet..when will i change?isk
u can do it. i must be hardworking n study now so that i will not have to stay awake 24 hours b4 exm.yes!
currently, im in terendak, but for the 3rd time being there its getting super duper boring.im not even went to malacca town as we always do last time.
however, i cherish of this ortho posting which are very cool n relaxing.but i realize that too much free time makes me even lazy than ever.haha.soooo, ive been thinking to get prepared for my exam, to do my writeup early, tbl, presntations bla3..

Selasa, 28 Desember 2010

i got fedup

Currently im in a new posting just for 2 days n i really dont like it....
sometimes i just wish i can stop studying n doing other things..
its very tiring at the age if 24 still studying medicine still have to do this n that..
n hav been studying for so long..i really wish i can stop studying n doing other things...

Selasa, 13 Juli 2010

Jika aku jatuh cinta..

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh cinta, cintakanlah aku
pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya
, agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk

Ya Muhaimin, jika aku jatuh cinta, jagalah cintaku
padanya agar tidak melebihi cintaku padaMu

Ya Rabbana, jika aku jatuh hati, jagalah hatiku
padanya agar tidak berpaling daripadaMu

Ya Rabbul Izzati, jika aku rindu, rindukanlah aku
pada seseorang yang merindui jihad dan syahid di

Ya Allah, jika aku rindu, jagalah rinduku padanya
agar tidak lalai aku merindui syurgaMu.

Ya Allah, jika aku menikmati cinta kekasihMu,
janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan
indahnya bermunajat di sepertiga malam

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasihMu,
janganlah biarkan aku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam
perjalanan panjang menyeru manusia kepadaMu

Ya Allah, jika Kau halalkan aku merindui
kekasihMu, jangan biarkan aku melampaui batas
sehingga terlupa pada kasihMu yang hakiki dan

Ya Allah..

All praises are for you Allah, how I hope that you are there.

For sinful though I know I am, your displeasure I can not bear.
Never, till this moment, did I realize how much I've strayed.
Never, till now, was I more conscious of all those times when
I should have prayed.
For sins are like heavy baggage, that one carries through Life,
the airport.
Why didn't I realize sooner, that Earth is but a place of sport?
Ya Allah ! Forgive me. Save me from the fire of Hell.
Forgive me as you did my parents, from Jan'ah though they fell.
Ya Allah ! Protect me. From myself for my soul is weak.
Let me not falter ever, for Jan'ah is the abode I seek.
Ya, Allah! Please help me. For I don't understand and thus, I fear.
What happened to all those moments when I never doubted that you
were near ?
My actions once were guided, by my faith which, once, was strong.
Ya Allah! please guide me . What happened, what went wrong ?
Each footstep that I used to take, I took with you ever near my
The Quran was my faithful companion, Rasoolallah my beloved guide.
How I yearn for those bygone days Allah, for I know that the day
comes near.
When we'll each receive our just rewards, and Truth will stand
sparkling clear.
Life is like a spider's web Allah. We get caught in its tricky
So thoroughly are we disillusioned, time for salat we can not
I sit here and I wonder, Ya Allah! Why did I fall so low ?
What happened to my faith Allah? Where did my Iman go?
In this earthly life of ours, so often does sin seem right.
Falsehood seems to be the truth, as if days are confused with
Man is an imperfect creature. And thus, Man shall always wrong.
For the road to Jan'ah is rocky, and the journey seems awfully
Ya Allah ! Our creator, we are all just peices of clay.
Please help us with our steps in life, and let us not lose our way.

All praises are for you Allah, I know that you are near.
I know that you have read my heart, and my words I know you hear...

Jumat, 18 Desember 2009

sudah lame!

its been a long time since i write something in this blog.
doesnt matter anyway, bukan ade org bace pon kan.haha
just me and vanillasky.
so..im currently studying in malaysia,i am so vey happy with this.
seperti hanis kate, hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sndiri, lebih baik di negeri sendiri.haha
im just finishing my community medicine study which are soo veryy damn tiring and tensioning.hihi.never been push this hard.or maybe bcoz there are huge different when im back at padang which me r so very lazy and nothng much that i do other than being regular customer of oasis and ramayana.hihi
but padang, i miss oasis already.hihi
im very glad that finally after struggling for this 2 months and not enough of sleepng for most of the days in this 2 months it finally over.thanks to prof bakar.ehem.
this sunday, hav to go to seri manjung for the nx posting,o n g.malas!haha
sometimes im just wondering is it worth it for me to struggle this hard, to give up so many years of my life juz to be a doctor...
im hoping i can help milions of milions people whn i be a doc, so that it will be worth it rite.haha.
back to reality, so im hoping for the best for the next posting and for my life.
whatever it is,...cerita dunia hanya sementara....
may Allah bless me n u always.aminn..peace

Kamis, 12 Februari 2009

Stop talking!

Words are loaded pistols...
tu pengarang, n filsuf Jean Paul Satre kate..
Mesti ngeri kan kalo pistol tu ade dgn org yg bengis, so die tembak org sesuke ati je tanpa kire tempat, status n waktu..hmm..camtula nk gambarkan betape bahyenye mulut kite ni.slh 1 anugerah yg harus kite jage..
tp pelik kan manusie ni.suke sgt bercakap, berckp, dan trus bercakap walaupun kdg2 hal yg x pentng dn xde gunenye.mcm xde noktahnye.sume bende kite nk ckp.sume bende kite nk bahas.sume bende kite nk citer.. bukan ke diam tu sebaik2 keadaan?

Orang yg banyak bicara akan banyak kesalahannya.Orang yg banyak kesalahannya akan banyak dosanya.Orang yg banyak dosanya akan mudah masuk neraka.
Camtula pegangan ulama..

Seorg sufi, Bisyr bin Al-Hariths, ratusan tahun lalu dah berpesan,

"Apabila berbicara menyenangkan anda, diamlah.Apabila diam menyenangkan anda,berbicaralah"

Al-Harith ajar kite spy boleh menempatkan hal berbicara, dan diam dalam konteks yg tepat.
Ni x,asal ade kesmpatan n peluang msti nk ckp.lps 1 hal,hal lain,smbg lagi hal lain.non stop.smpaila kte x sedar yg kite da mengumpat dn sebagainye.alangkah sedeynye!kalo boleh dicegah nape x dcegah?sbb kite tau kite ni bile kite da ckp possibility untk brckp bende yg x elok pasti ade.jd bknke lebih baik kite diam?mencegah itu lebih baik dr mengobati..

Diri seseorg itu, menurut da'i, bagaikan teko.Boleh berisi air sejuk yg menyegarkan, madu yg menyehatkan, teh manis yg terasa nikmat atau susu yg memberi byk manfaat.Perbicaraan org tulah yg menunjukkan ape ssngghnya isi teko tu, bagaimana kualiti dirinya.Kalo pebicaraan org tu nyaman didengar telinga dan menyejukkan hati, isi tekonya adalah air jernih yg menyejukkan.Tp kalau isinya hanyalah air yg kotor,maka ucapan yg keluar sama sebangun dgn isi tu.Dirinya sama kotornya dgn air tu..

mm..jd kite mestila xnk jd org yg isi teko die air kotor.make kenela kite menjage hati kite,menjage lisan kite..bercakap mestilah boleh, tp kenela pd tempatnye.xyahla sume bende kite nk ckpkan,nk citerkan, nk bahaskan.xkan pernah ade ending dan sgt menjenuhkan!dn akhirnye dpt saham dose.bazir je..kdg2 kite sndiri rimas tgk org yg asik berckp.x penat ke die?xtau ke die org cam x larat nk denga da?hihi.me personally x bape suke org asik berckp,brckp dn brckp.maafla ye.huhu.

Jd,sebenarnye mmg sshkan kite nk ctrl.kdg de org tu mmg sift alami..tp, kalo mulut org yela xleh kite snyapkan kecuali dgn menegur n nasihat die tp tukan mulut kite..cbelah diam n berckp pd tempatnye.kalo rase ssh sgt nk diam lebih baik kite beruzlah(mengasingkan diri)..sbb bile kite da berkmpul, jmpe kwn sume slalu nk brckp kan.jd mngkin de baiknye kite melarikan diri dlu.hehe.n kalo da mmg xleh kite ingatkanla diri slalu diam tu sebaik2 keadaan.kalo org byk ckp, perlu ke kite byk ckp gak?kite bkn org alim ulamak,para sufi, yg ckp die berisi mutiara, penuh hikmah.ckp kite slalu ade terslip sesuatu yg x baik.jd jagelah lidah kite.

Kata-kata itu pula yg menjadi pybb org sakit hati, dendam, tersinggung dan marah..

dgn kite asik brckp mngkin kite x sedar ade org trsnggung r marah atau x ske dgn ape yg kite ckp..kan da susah.yela.org x slalu megekspresikan ape yg die rase..Bile smpan, nati timbulla kebencian, kedengkian, permusuhan dan sebagainye.ish3
Jd kite xyahla sik nk berckp je.mngkin kite rase kite x ckp psl die pun, cter psl mende lain tp
mane tau de katn ngn die sbnrnye dn die terase..rambut same itam, ati lain2.huhu

Diam, pada saat yg tepat adalah sebatang emas.
Harganya jelas tidaklah murah.
Diam adalah berkah yang terselubung.
Diam adalah keselamatan yang tersembunyi.
Tidak setiap org sanggup menguak tabirnya.
Kenapa mulut hanya satu, dan telinga dua?Ini syarat..
Orang diharapkan lebih byk mendengar drpada berbicara..

soooo..jgnla asal ngomong ya.hihi.jgnla sik ckp je.
ni peringtn utk sy sndiri gk n kite2.mmg manusie tu slalu lalai n leka dn x mngkin seorg tu smpurna.tugas kite utk cube meperbaiki diri.cube menjage lisan kite untk menjd yg lebih baik..amin..