Welcome to final year!
its a mix feeling when entering to last year of medical student, hopefully..
yes, i am afraid of pro exam and how tough this year would be, as a final year student before becoming a real doctor.am i ready to be a doctor one year from now?i doubt that.haha.
then , come excitement of almost 6 years of studying medicine, i will be graduating soon!it might be late, and off the initial plan but finallyyyy its over.how relieve i am to picture that i pass my pro exam and will be posted as a doctor in the hospital.ya, to be a houseman is another story but u dont know how much i want to move on with something new in my life,at least entering a work life no matter how hard it would be.
now, its day 5 of my final year.currently im in orthopaedic posting for 1 month.so its left me 3 more weeks.i need to be focus and work hard this year, but i dont really see its coming till now.ish2.but still, i am telling myself i will be more hardworking and not to delay my works from now.i need to study, study and study.this is my future.i have to change!i want to be knowledgeable and smart, and thats dont come easy.i have to read, to sacrifice a lot of things, my easy measy life, and motivation is the important thing..
to be out of ur comfort zone is very challenging at first..but then i realize, i am very2 thankful for that.Allah knows better. He want me to be better, to be the best and not just some ordinary people who where in the same level in their life, being stagnant and dull. life is about u.u decide how u want it. i found to be in a new group with peoples that im not closed to were actually is a positive things in my life.of all this years, im clinging with the same people, same place, same thing, same routine which make me weak i think,im not seeing the world, ive been so closed. but now, i know my capability and i know i am in charge of my life, i can do more. my life would not gonna end if im expose to a new thing in life. Thank God for everything..
my life were more peaceful now, i dont have to bother about to take care of everyone feeling that hurting me.i can do anything i want, i can be frineds with anyone i want..sometimes, people u dont really know, far more sincere than someone you have know for years..they dont backstabbing u, n not busybody interfering with ur life and i really appreciate that.
i am here to study, and my goal to be knowledgeable and equip myself to be a good doctor, to pass the pro exam...We can always hope, but its Him who decide.Help me in my ways of being a better me, better muslim..Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin..