i got fedup

Currently im in a new posting just for 2 days n i really dont like it....

sometimes i just wish i can stop studying n doing other things..

its very tiring at the age if 24 still studying medicine still have to do this n that..

n hav been studying for so long..i really wish i can stop studying n doing other things...

Jika aku jatuh cinta..

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh cinta, cintakanlah aku
pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya
padaMu, agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk
menyintaiMu.

Ya Muhaimin, jika aku jatuh cinta, jagalah cintaku
padanya agar tidak melebihi cintaku padaMu.

Ya Rabbana, jika aku jatuh hati, jagalah hatiku
padanya agar tidak berpaling daripadaMu.

Ya Rabbul Izzati, jika aku rindu, rindukanlah aku
pada seseorang yang merindui jihad dan syahid di
jalanMu.

Ya Allah, jika aku rindu, jagalah rinduku padanya
agar tidak lalai aku merindui syurgaMu.

Ya Allah, jika aku menikmati cinta kekasihMu,
janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan
indahnya bermunajat di sepertiga malam
terakhirMu.

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasihMu,
janganlah biarkan aku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam
perjalanan panjang menyeru manusia kepadaMu.

Ya Allah, jika Kau halalkan aku merindui
kekasihMu, jangan biarkan aku melampaui batas
sehingga terlupa pada kasihMu yang hakiki dan
abadi.

Ya Allah..

All praises are for you Allah, how I hope that you are there.
   
For sinful though I know I am, your displeasure I can not bear.
    Never, till this moment, did I realize how much I've strayed.
    Never, till now, was I more conscious of all those times when
    I should have prayed.
    For sins are like heavy baggage, that one carries through Life,
    the airport.
    Why didn't I realize sooner, that Earth is but a place of sport?
    Ya Allah ! Forgive me. Save me from the fire of Hell.
    Forgive me as you did my parents, from Jan'ah though they fell.
    Ya Allah ! Protect me. From myself for my soul is weak.
    Let me not falter ever, for Jan'ah is the abode I seek.
    Ya, Allah! Please help me. For I don't understand and thus, I fear.
    What happened to all those moments when I never doubted that you
    were near ?
    My actions once were guided, by my faith which, once, was strong.
    Ya Allah! please guide me . What happened, what went wrong ?
    Each footstep that I used to take, I took with you ever near my
    side.
    The Quran was my faithful companion, Rasoolallah my beloved guide.
    How I yearn for those bygone days Allah, for I know that the day
    comes near.
    When we'll each receive our just rewards, and Truth will stand  
    sparkling clear.
    Life is like a spider's web Allah. We get caught in its tricky
    snare
    So thoroughly are we disillusioned, time for salat we can not
    spare.
    I sit here and I wonder, Ya Allah! Why did I fall so low ?
    What happened to my faith Allah? Where did my Iman go?
    In this earthly life of ours, so often does sin seem right.
    Falsehood seems to be the truth, as if days are confused with
    night.
    Man is an imperfect creature. And thus, Man shall always wrong.
    For the road to Jan'ah is rocky, and the journey seems awfully
    long.
    Ya Allah ! Our creator, we are all just peices of clay.
    Please help us with our steps in life, and let us not lose our way.
   
All praises are for you Allah, I know that you are near.
    I know that you have read my heart, and my words I know you hear...